Sunday, 16 September 2007
Wednesday, 12 September 2007
Saturday, 18 August 2007
A month has passed with just a blink, not that I have achieved much but certainly more fruitful (hopefully) stuff have been done. I have enjoyed the Taiwan overseas trip, get to know a bunch of interesting ppl, and most importantly, a short respite from the emotional ties and mental fatigue. But, 好景不长在, dad is just ailing by the days, as much as I hate to say, I know his days are numbered. I think he's just given up on himself, and I am just too tired and don't know how to motivate him. All I can do is to do whatever he says and ahere to his wishes. Right now, I just have to care abit about myself too, I know any further will cause a burnout myself. A very busy semester ahead with 2 field trips, 3 presentations, 3 individual essays, 4 mid terms, 5 grp projects and 5 exams, when you desire to get your hands on the NUSSU diary to remember the freaking amt of datelines/due dates, it's real time you need to work your socks out. The toughest sem lies ahead on the journey of my undergraduate days. I just hope to find some time in between to enjoy my favourites, soccer, tennis, mahjong, KTV, shopping and just chilling out with friends and turn 23 asap, call me superstitious or what, 22 is a bad year. A rocky path ahead but I have ascended to the Seven Stars Peak in Yangmingshan so what can resist me from proving I'm not a loser?
Sucks to be a human...being a robot w/o emotions and having batteries that can be recharged easily is much better, ain't it?
Sucks to be a human...being a robot w/o emotions and having batteries that can be recharged easily is much better, ain't it?
Wednesday, 18 July 2007
Thursday, 12 July 2007
I've been spending quite a bit these few days, but luckily it's on food and not any impulsive buys. Don't fret, I don't have any eating disorders and with my high metabolism rate, not much effect will be seen. Sometimes I just wonder where do the food I eat go and I must admit I have a bit of constipation problems, so where the hell all the food go? Eating for me is just a wastage. But I am going to waste more food, dim sum buffet again later.... i have an aim to gain one inch of waistline so that I can fit more easily into office pants.
Tuesday, 10 July 2007
I am much better now. It's been a long difficult and torrid period but I am glad I am able to put some of it behind. I took a long time but the process is an empowering one. I was too raw in the past, having not faced any crisis in my whole life, no relationship problems, family issues, violence or whatsoever. I've always been happy-go-lucky, smiling and laughing my years away. Things won't be the same again, I don't think I will smile that often anymore, maybe it's due to age, I show less emotions and talk much lesser as I age. Special thanks to all my friends who helped me all along.
For now, I am contented with my life. Meeting up with old friends, JC, army, secondary, uni, cousins and any others I have neglected. Doing sports, keep fit and I want to live a bit longer, till 65 will be enough. Chalet, overseas trip, then get ready for the final push for a new sch term. Now, even a small Marks & Spencer eclair chocolate taste so nice, not godly but yummy.
For now, I am contented with my life. Meeting up with old friends, JC, army, secondary, uni, cousins and any others I have neglected. Doing sports, keep fit and I want to live a bit longer, till 65 will be enough. Chalet, overseas trip, then get ready for the final push for a new sch term. Now, even a small Marks & Spencer eclair chocolate taste so nice, not godly but yummy.
Monday, 9 July 2007
Personality tests I've taken, quite a few of them, perhaps I'm too free.
You’re a Funshine Bear. You’re funny, clever, inventive, playful and you have a great sense of humor. You love to help others laugh and have fun!
Your Personality Style Description:
A team player, Teo readily relinquishes personal interests and goals to accommodate those close to him. He is loyal to a fault; but others may sometimes question his unwavering dedication to current relationships and methods. Teo values security, and usually does his best to avoid sudden changes in his environment or situation.Neat and orderly, others usually see Teo as practical. He needs adequate information to make decisions, and he will consider the pros and cons. He may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize his emotions. Teo likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and he will follow a logical process to gain successful results.Teo prefers a rational and moderate approach when first entering new situations and tries to avoid extremes. He likes the company of others, but Teo is equally comfortable spending a quiet evening alone. He is a realist who will always weigh his options before he makes a decision to move ahead.Teo would prefer things stay the same, rather than to risk a new venture (unless it is proven and true). He is typically peaceful and low key, and is usually seen by those around him as a good friend and listener. He tends to adopt a "wait and see" attitude about things, rather than taking charge of a situation, usually preferring to let others take the lead.
You Are 9% Open
You are not a very open person. For you, privacy is very important.And while you do have friends, even your friends don't know you well.Try to open up a little more. It's amazing how much better relationships are when the other person understands you.
Your Birthdate: October 13
You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking.However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone.Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next.Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.
Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging by Joe Butt
Profile: ISTJRevision: 3.0Date of Revision: 27 Feb 2005
"It is in keeping with tradition throughout our history that I should express simply and directly the opinions which I hold concerning some of the matters of present importance." --Herbert Hoover, Inaugural Address, Monday, March 4, 1929.
ISTJs are often called inspectors. They have a keen sense of right and wrong, especially in their area of interest and/or responsibility. They are noted for devotion to duty. Punctuality is a watchword of the ISTJ. The secretary, clerk, or business(wo)man by whom others set their clocks is likely to be an ISTJ.
As do other Introverted Thinkers, ISTJs often give the initial impression of being aloof and perhaps somewhat cold. Effusive expression of emotional warmth is not something that ISTJs do without considerable energy loss.
ISTJs are most at home with "just the facts, Ma'am." They seem to perform at highest efficiency when employing a step-by-step approach. Once a new procedure has proven itself (i.e., has been shown "to work,") the ISTJ can be depended upon to carry it through, even at the expense of their own health.
ISTJs are easily frustrated by the inconsistencies of others, especially when the second parties don't keep their commitments. But they usually keep their feelings to themselves unless they are asked. And when asked, they don't mince words. Truth wins out over tact. The grim determination of the ISTJ vindicates itself in officiation of sports events, judiciary functions, or an other situation which requires making tough calls and sticking to them.
His SJ orientation draws the ISTJ into the service of established institutions. Home, social clubs, government, schools, the military, churches -- these are the bastions of the SJ. "We've always done it this way" is often reason enough for many ISTJs. Threats to time-honored traditions or established organizations (e.g., a "run" on the bank) are the undoing of SJs, and are to be fought at all costs.
You’re a Funshine Bear. You’re funny, clever, inventive, playful and you have a great sense of humor. You love to help others laugh and have fun!
Your Personality Style Description:
A team player, Teo readily relinquishes personal interests and goals to accommodate those close to him. He is loyal to a fault; but others may sometimes question his unwavering dedication to current relationships and methods. Teo values security, and usually does his best to avoid sudden changes in his environment or situation.Neat and orderly, others usually see Teo as practical. He needs adequate information to make decisions, and he will consider the pros and cons. He may be sensitive to criticism, and will tend to internalize his emotions. Teo likes to clarify expectations before undertaking new projects, and he will follow a logical process to gain successful results.Teo prefers a rational and moderate approach when first entering new situations and tries to avoid extremes. He likes the company of others, but Teo is equally comfortable spending a quiet evening alone. He is a realist who will always weigh his options before he makes a decision to move ahead.Teo would prefer things stay the same, rather than to risk a new venture (unless it is proven and true). He is typically peaceful and low key, and is usually seen by those around him as a good friend and listener. He tends to adopt a "wait and see" attitude about things, rather than taking charge of a situation, usually preferring to let others take the lead.
You Are 9% Open
You are not a very open person. For you, privacy is very important.And while you do have friends, even your friends don't know you well.Try to open up a little more. It's amazing how much better relationships are when the other person understands you.
Your Birthdate: October 13
You don't love lightly. For you, love is always a serious undertaking.However, you are able to love many types of people. You can bring out the best in almost anyone.Love surprises you often. You never know when or where you'll find it next.Number of True Loves You'll Have: 1Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 5You are most compatible with people born on the 4th, 13th, 22nd, and 31st of the month.
Introverted Sensing Thinking Judging by Joe Butt
Profile: ISTJRevision: 3.0Date of Revision: 27 Feb 2005
"It is in keeping with tradition throughout our history that I should express simply and directly the opinions which I hold concerning some of the matters of present importance." --Herbert Hoover, Inaugural Address, Monday, March 4, 1929.
ISTJs are often called inspectors. They have a keen sense of right and wrong, especially in their area of interest and/or responsibility. They are noted for devotion to duty. Punctuality is a watchword of the ISTJ. The secretary, clerk, or business(wo)man by whom others set their clocks is likely to be an ISTJ.
As do other Introverted Thinkers, ISTJs often give the initial impression of being aloof and perhaps somewhat cold. Effusive expression of emotional warmth is not something that ISTJs do without considerable energy loss.
ISTJs are most at home with "just the facts, Ma'am." They seem to perform at highest efficiency when employing a step-by-step approach. Once a new procedure has proven itself (i.e., has been shown "to work,") the ISTJ can be depended upon to carry it through, even at the expense of their own health.
ISTJs are easily frustrated by the inconsistencies of others, especially when the second parties don't keep their commitments. But they usually keep their feelings to themselves unless they are asked. And when asked, they don't mince words. Truth wins out over tact. The grim determination of the ISTJ vindicates itself in officiation of sports events, judiciary functions, or an other situation which requires making tough calls and sticking to them.
His SJ orientation draws the ISTJ into the service of established institutions. Home, social clubs, government, schools, the military, churches -- these are the bastions of the SJ. "We've always done it this way" is often reason enough for many ISTJs. Threats to time-honored traditions or established organizations (e.g., a "run" on the bank) are the undoing of SJs, and are to be fought at all costs.
You are 85% Rational, 14% Extroverted, 0% Brutal, and 0% Arrogant.
You are the Robot! You are characterized by your rationality. In fact, this is really ALL you are characterized by. Like a cold, heartless machine, you are so logical and unemotional that you scarcely seem human. For instance, you are very humble and don't bother thinking of your own interests, you are very gentle and lack emotion, and you are also very introverted and introspective. You may have noticed that these traits are just as applicable to your laptop as they are to a human being. You are not like the robots they show in the movies. Movie robots are make-believe, because they always get all personable and likeable after being struck by lightning, or they are cold, cruel killing machines. In all reality, though, you are much more boring than all that. Real robots just sit there, doing their stupid jobs, and doing little else. If you get struck by lightning, you won't develop a winning personality and heart of gold. (Robots don't have hearts, silly, and if they did, they would probably be made of steel, not gold.) You also won't be likely to terrorize humanity by becoming an ultra-violent killing machine sent into the past to kill the mother of a child who will lead a rebellion against machines, because that movie was dumb as hell, and because real robots don't kill--they horribly maim at best, and they don't even do that on purpose. Real robots are boringly kind and all too rarely try to kill people. In all my years, my laptop has only attacked me once, and that was only because my brother threw it at me. In short, your personality defect is that you don't really HAVE a personality. You are one of those annoying, super-logical people that never gets upset or flustered. Unless, of course, you short circuit. Or if someone throws a pie at you. Pies sure are delicious.
Summary of Peacemakers
· Value personal freedom
· Particularly sensitive to the feelings of others
· Think of themselves as steady, gentle and sympathetic
· Others may mistake their quiet nature for weakness
More about Peacemakers
Peacemakers focus on the present and enjoy helping others in practical ways. They are sensitive to the world around them and take quiet joy from people and nature, particularly animals. Peacemakers value close relationships, but it may take time for others to get to know them.
Peacemakers are the most likely group to say they dislike reading history books, according to a UK survey.
Peacemakers live by a set of personal values, which they work hard to reflect in their everyday life. They would rather support an activity than organise it. When they do find themselves in leadership positions, they observe quietly and lead by example.
In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Peacemakers may withdraw and become self-critical. Under extreme stress, Peacemakers may become even more critical of themselves and others and make harsh judgements about minor issues.
Peacemakers tend to show someone how much they care about them by helping them in a practical way rather than putting their feelings into words.
Wen Jie, you are a Peacemaker.
Peacemakers "wear well' with others. With their moderate, controlled stance and modest demeanor, they are able to work well with a number of behavioral styles. Peacemakers are considerate, patient, and always willing to help those they consider friends. They build close relationships with a relatively small group of associates in the work environment.
Wen Jie, you are thoughtful.
In relating to people you are suited to a position in which you can provide an expert service as an insightful professional. This is because your thoughtfulness and sensitivity are very much appreciated by others who require considered, expert help from someone who also displays understanding and tolerance of their situation.
· Value personal freedom
· Particularly sensitive to the feelings of others
· Think of themselves as steady, gentle and sympathetic
· Others may mistake their quiet nature for weakness
More about Peacemakers
Peacemakers focus on the present and enjoy helping others in practical ways. They are sensitive to the world around them and take quiet joy from people and nature, particularly animals. Peacemakers value close relationships, but it may take time for others to get to know them.
Peacemakers are the most likely group to say they dislike reading history books, according to a UK survey.
Peacemakers live by a set of personal values, which they work hard to reflect in their everyday life. They would rather support an activity than organise it. When they do find themselves in leadership positions, they observe quietly and lead by example.
In situations where they can't use their talents or are unappreciated, Peacemakers may withdraw and become self-critical. Under extreme stress, Peacemakers may become even more critical of themselves and others and make harsh judgements about minor issues.
Peacemakers tend to show someone how much they care about them by helping them in a practical way rather than putting their feelings into words.
Wen Jie, you are a Peacemaker.
Peacemakers "wear well' with others. With their moderate, controlled stance and modest demeanor, they are able to work well with a number of behavioral styles. Peacemakers are considerate, patient, and always willing to help those they consider friends. They build close relationships with a relatively small group of associates in the work environment.
Wen Jie, you are thoughtful.
In relating to people you are suited to a position in which you can provide an expert service as an insightful professional. This is because your thoughtfulness and sensitivity are very much appreciated by others who require considered, expert help from someone who also displays understanding and tolerance of their situation.
Friday, 6 July 2007
Just a trivial, words starting with "D" has such negative meanings.
despondent, desperate, destitute, desolate, desert, dissolve, distressed, distraught, disillusioned, discredit, demean, denounce, derogate, disrespectful, disown, disoriented, degrade, disabled, disease, defiance, despicable, despised, dethroned, detrimental, discouraged, disappointment, dissent, divorce, deceased, dead, doom, the grade D if you're a student, the list goes on but I'm lazy to think of more.
Avoid all of the above at all costs.
despondent, desperate, destitute, desolate, desert, dissolve, distressed, distraught, disillusioned, discredit, demean, denounce, derogate, disrespectful, disown, disoriented, degrade, disabled, disease, defiance, despicable, despised, dethroned, detrimental, discouraged, disappointment, dissent, divorce, deceased, dead, doom, the grade D if you're a student, the list goes on but I'm lazy to think of more.
Avoid all of the above at all costs.
Sunday, 1 July 2007
Heaven is that heartless. Just when I am about to pick myself up, another blow came crushing down. My dear Ah Gong has left the world and I couldn't make it to see his last moment. In retrospect, it had been a miserable year for me since my 22th birthday! Lost two of my grandparents, a sudden onset of cough just sparked off a death sentence, no luck in studies nor love. I can't look back and see any positive. Why is everything happening? super disconcerted with life now. How I wish I was 12.....
二十二
春天是他最爱的季节 当微风随意吹乱他的头发 他并不在意身边世界的吵杂 只想著自己生命中的变化 还有十五分钟才午休 从早到晚没有想像中那么好过 安定的日子不一定就是幸福 忘不掉他在心里做过的梦 他今年农历三月六号刚满 刚甩掉课本要离开家看看这世界 却发现许多烦恼要面对 oh yeah 他常会想望能回到那年他一十二 只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁 他就像一朵蓓蕾满怀希望 秋天是忽然间就来临 青春虽然有本钱可以洒脱 一场恋爱二十二个月就结束 才知道有些感情不值得赌 九月天气还是有点热 他想公车再不来就走一走路 他开始明白等待未必有结果 一个人也能走上梦的旅途 他今年农历三月六号刚满二十二 刚甩掉课本要离开家看看这世界 却发现许多烦恼要面对 oh yeah 他常会想望能回到那年他一十二 只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁 他一直满怀希望 人生偶尔会走上一条陌路 像是没有指标的地图 别让他们说你该知足 只有你知道什么是你的幸福 他常会想望能回到那年他一十二 只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁 他笑著想过未来 oh 他应该得到幸福 如此的简单的梦 有没有实现
22 is plagued with so much problems......
二十二
春天是他最爱的季节 当微风随意吹乱他的头发 他并不在意身边世界的吵杂 只想著自己生命中的变化 还有十五分钟才午休 从早到晚没有想像中那么好过 安定的日子不一定就是幸福 忘不掉他在心里做过的梦 他今年农历三月六号刚满 刚甩掉课本要离开家看看这世界 却发现许多烦恼要面对 oh yeah 他常会想望能回到那年他一十二 只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁 他就像一朵蓓蕾满怀希望 秋天是忽然间就来临 青春虽然有本钱可以洒脱 一场恋爱二十二个月就结束 才知道有些感情不值得赌 九月天气还是有点热 他想公车再不来就走一走路 他开始明白等待未必有结果 一个人也能走上梦的旅途 他今年农历三月六号刚满二十二 刚甩掉课本要离开家看看这世界 却发现许多烦恼要面对 oh yeah 他常会想望能回到那年他一十二 只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁 他一直满怀希望 人生偶尔会走上一条陌路 像是没有指标的地图 别让他们说你该知足 只有你知道什么是你的幸福 他常会想望能回到那年他一十二 只需要好好上学生活单纯没忧愁 他笑著想过未来 oh 他应该得到幸福 如此的简单的梦 有没有实现
22 is plagued with so much problems......
Thursday, 28 June 2007
A simple life is all I ask for. Not one where I get to enjoy the luxuries of life, days eating simple 3 meals soaked in the warmth and love of a happy family will be ideal. As simple as it seems, the reality often presents the other case. To attain such heavenly status, exisiting ties must be improved/maintained/reinforced and new ties must be forged. Obviously, I am nowhere near this far dream, as ascertained by examples below.
My current family is going to be wrecked sooner or later. It's simply Heaven's says when it is due time. My friends are just playing a bit part role in my life, super duper soul mates are just lacking or gone unnoticed because of my own problems in confiding in them. The situation is now even more complicated with myself not really wanting to interact much with anyone. A deep sorry to everyone, not that I don't bothered, it's just indescribable. Making new friends have stagnated as I go into my final year of studies, not that it isn't impt but not on high priority with my current agony and insolence. As urban dwellers, you get to know dozens of people but those who you truely know in some sense is perhaps just a hatful, getting to know them more in a deeper sense will certainly be much far fulfilling than meeting more aquaintances.
The same theory will apply when I deal with BGR. I never know how to or engage in flirting around with girls, or even a more serious matter of fooling around. That perhaps explains my pathetic love life. Getting to know intensely the special one is truely far more impt than meeting more girl friends and give yourself more choices. That said, I seriously think my stance will change soon if the situation don't improve. I'm certainly not looking for a perfect dream beauty with absolutely no weaknesses. A matured lady with a kind soul and willing to accept me will do. A tinge of feminity, cuteness and not being XL size and above will be added bonuses. Plenty of them around in the vast world, and even in the mini red dot Singapore but I have gotten none. Many girls have commented that I am a nice guy but what's the use, there's always this famous saying of nice guys finishing last and a not so famous saying created by myself that NICE just means "Nothing Interesting Cockanathan Elephant", that's crap I know. I have no lack of female friends but progressing past the friend stage is an ardeous task that takes the extra mile to make the effort. I am prepared for it but maybe sometimes it's just false hope. I especially hate the process of guessing the hints and replies set forth by girls, okay I'm a superblockhead and I probably fail much more terribly in this test than any exams I have sat for. So be it, I can just continue to wait for more opportunities in the future. Hopefully by I reach the age of 35, I can start a new happy family with kids. If not, probably have to go buy a foreign bride from Vietnam. Looks like I have to start establishing contacts with the boss of Vietnam Brides International Matchmaking, which I am going to interview in around 10 hours time for a research project. Do saikung for the sake of $. If I need his service in 10 years down the road, perhaps I will get a discount!
With my crestfallen state over this period, I have neglected my duties to the community, my volunteering endeavours have come to a standstill. I certainly miss the residents of IMH, and the special group of volunteer friends who have rendered great support to me during the difficult times. Still felt very bad about the hasty exit from my PD role and left so many things in a mess. Luckily, Priscilla helped and took over the role extremely well and with the help of many other seniors and members, things are able to continue running. As promised, I will be back and hope to pick things up in the next sem. That I think is the only way I can contribute back to the society as a volunteer since I can't do it as a profession. Social work is one of my choices but I did not take up for practical reasons, the renumeration involved. Being the only child, the financial burden in the future will be heavy so I can't really take up this route unless in the future when I become financially stable, then I can consider a mid-career switch.
Having lived for close to 23 yrs of life, it's time to do some reflections. There will be much more to reflect upon but not at this instance, perhaps later. Having felt so low for a while, certainly things will not be better if it continues. Thanks anyone for allowing me to chance upon one of my friend's blog, Kheng Guat, a very self-driven aspiring prison officer. It then allows me to inspire myself for the better. Cheers to a better future! Looking forward to the Taiwan holiday trip next month, hope it will refresh me.
My current family is going to be wrecked sooner or later. It's simply Heaven's says when it is due time. My friends are just playing a bit part role in my life, super duper soul mates are just lacking or gone unnoticed because of my own problems in confiding in them. The situation is now even more complicated with myself not really wanting to interact much with anyone. A deep sorry to everyone, not that I don't bothered, it's just indescribable. Making new friends have stagnated as I go into my final year of studies, not that it isn't impt but not on high priority with my current agony and insolence. As urban dwellers, you get to know dozens of people but those who you truely know in some sense is perhaps just a hatful, getting to know them more in a deeper sense will certainly be much far fulfilling than meeting more aquaintances.
The same theory will apply when I deal with BGR. I never know how to or engage in flirting around with girls, or even a more serious matter of fooling around. That perhaps explains my pathetic love life. Getting to know intensely the special one is truely far more impt than meeting more girl friends and give yourself more choices. That said, I seriously think my stance will change soon if the situation don't improve. I'm certainly not looking for a perfect dream beauty with absolutely no weaknesses. A matured lady with a kind soul and willing to accept me will do. A tinge of feminity, cuteness and not being XL size and above will be added bonuses. Plenty of them around in the vast world, and even in the mini red dot Singapore but I have gotten none. Many girls have commented that I am a nice guy but what's the use, there's always this famous saying of nice guys finishing last and a not so famous saying created by myself that NICE just means "Nothing Interesting Cockanathan Elephant", that's crap I know. I have no lack of female friends but progressing past the friend stage is an ardeous task that takes the extra mile to make the effort. I am prepared for it but maybe sometimes it's just false hope. I especially hate the process of guessing the hints and replies set forth by girls, okay I'm a superblockhead and I probably fail much more terribly in this test than any exams I have sat for. So be it, I can just continue to wait for more opportunities in the future. Hopefully by I reach the age of 35, I can start a new happy family with kids. If not, probably have to go buy a foreign bride from Vietnam. Looks like I have to start establishing contacts with the boss of Vietnam Brides International Matchmaking, which I am going to interview in around 10 hours time for a research project. Do saikung for the sake of $. If I need his service in 10 years down the road, perhaps I will get a discount!
With my crestfallen state over this period, I have neglected my duties to the community, my volunteering endeavours have come to a standstill. I certainly miss the residents of IMH, and the special group of volunteer friends who have rendered great support to me during the difficult times. Still felt very bad about the hasty exit from my PD role and left so many things in a mess. Luckily, Priscilla helped and took over the role extremely well and with the help of many other seniors and members, things are able to continue running. As promised, I will be back and hope to pick things up in the next sem. That I think is the only way I can contribute back to the society as a volunteer since I can't do it as a profession. Social work is one of my choices but I did not take up for practical reasons, the renumeration involved. Being the only child, the financial burden in the future will be heavy so I can't really take up this route unless in the future when I become financially stable, then I can consider a mid-career switch.
Having lived for close to 23 yrs of life, it's time to do some reflections. There will be much more to reflect upon but not at this instance, perhaps later. Having felt so low for a while, certainly things will not be better if it continues. Thanks anyone for allowing me to chance upon one of my friend's blog, Kheng Guat, a very self-driven aspiring prison officer. It then allows me to inspire myself for the better. Cheers to a better future! Looking forward to the Taiwan holiday trip next month, hope it will refresh me.
Saturday, 23 June 2007
Another night of sleeplessness, I really need a space to store my unhappiness temporarily (hopefully permanently), so this shall be it. I don't know when this trend will end, it seemed so boundless. I have forgotten when I last felt happy and no amount of chilling out with friends or doing the stuff I like seem to help solve this problem.
I am undergoing a deep slump in my life. Never felt so lethargic, everyday spent doing absolutely nothing meaningful. I don't know whether this is regarded as depression. The root of the problem is my father's illness. As I see him getting weaker and showing signs of his age, it just pains me. Although I wasn't really close to him since young, his sufferings from the needles and the various complicated chemicals running through his body, causing pain to him hurts everybody close to him. I have never considered myself to be an emotional person but everytime I thought of losing him to illness just caused my tears to flow uncontrollably.
Dear U
我们都很想念
I am undergoing a deep slump in my life. Never felt so lethargic, everyday spent doing absolutely nothing meaningful. I don't know whether this is regarded as depression. The root of the problem is my father's illness. As I see him getting weaker and showing signs of his age, it just pains me. Although I wasn't really close to him since young, his sufferings from the needles and the various complicated chemicals running through his body, causing pain to him hurts everybody close to him. I have never considered myself to be an emotional person but everytime I thought of losing him to illness just caused my tears to flow uncontrollably.
Dear U
我们都很想念
你在你离开以后这些日子里
以往的每次想起眼泪都象汗水一样的决堤
你临走前的那些日子
我们每一个人都尽量的掩饰
不让你看到伤心的样子
心里的痛苦永远无法解释
看着疾病不断侵蚀你的生命
多想让时间暂停让你再感受多点温馨
你松开了双手带走你的温柔连说声再见的时间也(都)没有
只希望你能快乐永远无忧
一切(所有)的幸福都在你左右
你松开了双手带走你的温柔
我们还会相亲相爱到永久
遇到风雨的时候紧
握彼此的(双)手你的爱已足够成为我们坚强的理由
最后的那段时间里我一回家就会去看看你
多想用自己全部的能力
换你坚强生还的勇气
妹妹经常在夜里千万次地呼唤妈妈的名字
或许她还不曾想起最爱她的你已经不在这里
I hope to use this song as my inspiration to get back on track pretty soon.
I hope to use this song as my inspiration to get back on track pretty soon.
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